Tuesday, May 31, 2011

o my heart,why??

There were nearly thousands of audience and I was the center of attraction, As i started to follow the music, dancing for so many people my parents my sir in front row smiling at my victor ,i closed my eyes i could hear my heartbeat and started with all courage and in all respect to my sir i danced, i looked like a swan in my white tutu i was a complete ballerina today, was pleased to hear the crowd calling out my name,I wanted to freeze this moment but the excitement was killing me but this moment was a lifesaver.

A sudden twist in my leg, i fell in middle of the stage my mom ran to me, was all i saw before closing my eyes, was blank and out of thoughts filled with tears ,a shake of some one woke me their was a fair lady calling my name as i opened my eyes i saw my mom.
I said mom where am i, what happen?? she told to relax you must have had a nightmare as she told not to strain my heart, i asked why ?? she left in silence.

I looked around me, i was in bed the stinking smell made me realize i was in hospital from past 1 week and what I saw was a part of my dream which was going to be reality,but and bust out of tear i closed my eyes and said.
o my heart why?? you knew my dream but why didn't you wait till i could live that moment,why didn't you stand by me tho i believed you so much why did you abandoned me??
A week and stressed voice replied please don't hurt me more you are the reason for every thing don't excite me, i can't bare the pain i'm already holed and a complete silence was filled in me.
A silence in which i had to live my life.           

⇨Signing Off ♥Prathi♥

Saturday, May 28, 2011

clock !!!

boy : (speaking in phone) i'm so happy ,i'm going to see you after such a long time .
girl : me to ,very excited !!!
boy : have you informed others about this ??
girl :about what ??
boy : that your coming . 
girl : NO, i don't want any attention ,i'm sure they are busy and all.Don't wanna bother any one, more over we are nothing like before so i don't want any one to know i'm coming.
boy : you miss them ,don't you ??
girl : well i do but times changed we need to move on .
boy : don't you wanna see them get back together like old times ??
girl : I wish I could turn the clock around but..!! well don't to talk more on this please.
boy : did i mention you girls are wired .
girl : hundred times in a day lol. okay enough talk i need to pack .will be waiting be in time ill reach around 10am please don't make me wait ok.
boy : don't worry ill be there in time. ok gotcha do some home work ill call you in a while 
girl :ok fine :)
boy :and love i'm really excited .
girl : me too cya tomorrow love you loads sweet 

   before i could finish my talk he disconnected the call.he never does that with out replying .i felt bad really bad. thought he was indeed not that excited about the meet but i kept myself away from getting disappointed and started to pack .
It was quit a journey i was lost in the thoughts about our last talk after that he had not called or text me and even didn't reply my calls. i had a two feeling now just don't wanted to face more disappointed.last time when i was home due to something silly we all friends lost our contact. don't wanted that again i kept saying to myself he must be busy any ways he had mentioned about some home work so relax and its gonna be fine .
Bus reached on time was waiting in stand for him but there was no sing of him,I tried calling but it was not reachable was literally scattered and literally filled in tears.I tired to call no repose thought this meet indeed was a bad idea. I got into my return bus was sobbing in the last set of the bus.
thought of giving a last call before taking the tickets .
when i got my cell out there was a text from him.
" sorry honey i can't pick you please don't be sad i'm in some trouble and i need you to wait for me in my house please. i hope you will understand " 
The word trouble hit me so bad i forgot all about the past one hour and rushed to his place.
as i got off the auto i saw many vehicles out side the house as i entered there were so many slipper all this got me into more worry . the door was open,as i entered inside the whole room was dark,i stood still in the center of hall calling his name out loud .
all of the sudden a familiar voice from behind "welcome home" as i turned to see who it was.A flash of light all my friends jump out from their hide spot shouting surprise.
the people i thought i would never  meet again in my life ever were hugging me and telling we missed you.
that was the most happiest day of my life that feeling is simply a lifesaver.
Now i knew why he didn't pick me and what home work he was talking about. he had been through a lot of trouble to get them all together on that working day.

boy : hugged me and said I love you too dear sorry i had to ignore you all this time i'm sorry ,did you like my welcome gift .
girl : i loved it ,(i was speechless i hugged him and said thank you for understanding my unsaid emotions your the best).
boy : you know some thing you need not turn around the clock just wait for it because it stops 2 times a day in same spot, just be smart enough to fig it out.
⇨Signing Off ♥Prathi♥

10 days challenge - day 10 *Secrets*

Finally my last post  from the tag *whoop whoop*  i'm so happy ,its over now i need not wonder about myself for clue to blog *ufff* i hate to exaggerate myself ..so skipping on to my last topic Secrets *ssshhh* .

1.I'm a simple women who always show what kind of moods i'm in .i some times display myself with act much more than talks.2.when i'm really mad and anger, ill trash and throw things what ever get in my hand . I've very bad temper !!

3.  I'm one crazy lazy girl who wake up late like in noon !!

4.I can't be rude to any one, no matter how irritating they are but only till I really get pissed off their so dead *beware*.

5.I can really hide my feeling and hold back my tears for really long ,and I prefer dark and lonely place to weep . I don't show much of my weakness , despite my innocent and childish look you can never get to know me deep .

6. The word shopping really make me jump around with happy tears, i'm not so proud Shopaholic .

7.When I dance, thats when I live most of my happy life . I get over my frustration When I dance .

8. And i can't be anger on any one, for not even more than a day .i'm that sweet !!

9.I know i'm a grown up now but I still sleep with my teddy  ..!!

10. I booze occasionally and vodka is very bad on me and I throw up every thing ones in a while and i hate hangover.

PS ssshhhh don't tell any one please keep my secrets a secret ..!!

 ⇨Signing Off ♥Prathi♥

Friday, May 27, 2011

10 days challenge - day 9 *loves*

I'm a sort of like who believe and respect very thing around and try to have the pleasure of happiness with what ever I'm blessed with. Love to me is respect and admiration and unselfish care and support  which is sort of hard to find this days. Love & friendship this days happen to be just a namesake tag for their domestic use, I some time wonder why people play in the name of feelings. people who have selfish intension just pretend to light up your life but the truth is later their the reason for the darkness we end up in.Sometimes illusion of believing every smiling face may end up with tears in your eyes forever its just a thought from my life gallery or let me put it as experience .In todays life we don't know whom to trust or give them the priorities or to love .I guess its really very hard to see clear in broken glasses, every thing looks so wrong and selfish through it, its getting harder to believe or trust any one this days. all faces look alike the killer face from the nightmare. don't know why people play with feelings and destroy some one else life for their own pleasure but i still believe; love is beautifully and i was wrong and made a wrong choice. well skipping out of my chapter to my subject of the day.
1.well i don't need to mention 1st place is always saved for my dad, mom,brother and sister no doubt its only for family like always and forever.
2.my sweet dogie "Happy". you might be knowing him already but here he is in his 3 months puppy photo my sweet heart .

3.some one whom i use to look up for the definition of love but now all I'm left with is  memories ..
4.  my sexy cell phone ♥

5.love to eat ice cream in rain *yumm*

6.my blog which is actually making my life 'Technicolor'.

7. music is my life ,my love forever !!
 8.to sarcastic but

9.well there is nothing much in my life to be mentioned, I do respect every thing but i just don't hold on to it like to build a relation called 'love attachment' this days because like i mentioned in my last post; love is like heaven but hurts like hell, regarding every thing so this days when it comes to love i prefer to be isolated  . 

PS i know this post of mine is total pakku *lame*  i'm sorry just no good feeling about love .so its like right topic on wrong day !!

⇨Signing Off ♥Prathi♥

Thursday, May 26, 2011

10 days challenge - day 8 *Fears*

I'm a bit sensitive in person i'do get scared very often regarding lifeless issues ,well thats obvious and its a human tendency but my fears are normal and usual as we all go through in time like that of getting late , scared of exams and much more the common issues .
The feeling of disgust ,irritation ,hater all together in short as phobia , 1st of all i'm a Phobophobia- (Fear of phobias ) to start with lol, like all normal person i do have hater regarding certain things but yet such things have not stopped me from living my life, less on details getting on with my phobias.

1. Scared of getting lost in dark woods .

2. Scared of heights ....

3.I can't count this under fears its one of the most hated things in common and my biggest enemy ,the one I can't bare or spare  Mosquitoes . One of the worlds biggest danger as well as irritating creature and to mention I do hate Arthropods their just too creepy and disgusting!! example- Ants, cockroach mainly the flying ones *ewwww *.Except Butterfly,The beauty born to flatter.I wonder how they named it under arthropods or say horror-pods.

4.Steel any thing like that of metallic, The irritating creepy annoying sound of metals when scratched or rubbed against the other and the sound of metal when hit the ground, that sound really make me aggressive this is the only reason I hate to wash vessels and steel related,this high frequency sound is just  to hard on my ears and yup Metallic is one of my Favorite band !!! 

5.Blood *eww* !! one more, which can't be named under fear but its disgusting for me. I hate the sight of blood it simply make me puke some time ,The fleshy pungent smell all together I hate to enter the spot of blood and yes my dad's a surgeon and reds my pet color ..

6.I'm scared of losing my cell phone i'm a bit phone addict, which is bad I know but in my defense, I think I started using cell in early age like 14 can't help.I am trying to get over it from the day I realized I'm a Nomophobic for more phone-addiction the place where I came across my weakness .. 

7. EXAM fear /fever

8. Scared of love because 

 “Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game”

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

10 days challenge - day 7 *Wants*

Well my wants list can never be minimized to 7 but still the things I desperately want and the top 7 wants would be  as follows. few are very silly and few are above the average but still they are in my wants list .

hehehe i know but still I can dream of having it :O)

One of the most important wants *The Secret* part 1 & 2

most wanted 

coats awww !!

Never ending stock of chocolates 

boots boots boots ...!!!and I'm shoe-aholic 

big and hug but cute teddy 

bunch of flowers 

And a happiness with out expire date, something which would last forever with out limitations .

⇨Signing Off ♥Prathi♥

Monday, May 23, 2011

10 days challenge - day 6 *Places*

Darjeeling India

India > Karnataka > Mysore = My home town

Ooty >  Tamilnadu > India

Goa > India


and the last but not the least 

*My house*
⇨Signing Off ♥Prathi♥