My Life in Technicolor

In this life journey I always got lost in important turning point of my life and I always stayed distracted. The feeling of nobody killed me. Had nothing in life everything was passing clouds and time been attraction .I never had any thing to relate myself and I really hated that feeling of been nothing. I was just below average girl always shy, scared and lack of confidence, a totally loser in word. I all most tried every kind of a things to relate myself but nothing last long, just name it and yes I had a time of my life trying to fit in. was a totally dumb it feels crazy the way I was but today I know I’m something beyond average. Only bcoz I learnt through my mistakes and my stupidity. • Sitting in house while all my friends were in college. • getting backstabbed by my very own, • Doing all the crazy and messy things just for fun. • Getting education with people way younger. • Relationship and commitments in young age. Many more things which can't be mentioned...

Life in times teaches you the meaning of seriousness so randomly , don't know what you will lose or gain in that fight. Life to me is always a question mark regarding everything, tho I fall at my every step I Still force myself to stand up and hope for good . Its not your mistake that you believe someone or something so much knowingly that later you will end up dead by the same subject, it happens; love ,respect more than all humanity can't be expected from all . I hardly believed in anything or took anything seriously in life ,that i'm at the edge of it, now i'm forced to go on in a different direction; from that of my dreams and opt the future where I never belonged. Every morning I had the tendency to believe that every day is a new start to further hope of leading a better life but I always ended up in a wrong place but still; like they say " Its never too late " .I know, I can still make it right and regain my loss . ...

"Trust" god thats one huge word, In this world you can be no one with out this 4 letter in your pocket.It play a huge role in your life, It is the First most Important word and meaning that as to be learnt in life.If you trust yourself you will never be scared of any thing in world and If you have the same trust on someone no matter what happens or what the world speak nothing can spoil your relationship. But never blindly trust in someone so much that they get the priority to hurt you so bad that you get scared by the word Trust. Trying to answer the complicated word "TRUST" related questions in my way that would be as follows. Phase 1. How to be sure where to imply Trust ? and what is trust ? Every thing on this world stands on trust, some are blind folded and sometimes even tho when they are so clear and open and some times right in front of us , we still fail to believe and later risk them forever . In this present lifestyle its hard not to trust someo...